Monthly Archives: September 2010

night in the ruts, right in the nuts

My monthly trust check was a couple of hundred dollars more than it usually is and I don’t know why. No note with the check or anything so I cash it and I’m in a hurry to spend it. If … Continue reading

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early bird gets the syringe

so I used again…and then after that I was feeling so bad I used again. So this morning I used BEFORE I started feeling bad. Now I’m having one hell of a time keeping my head off my desk and … Continue reading

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quick update

that last dope I purchased, I still have it. I know it’s hard to believe and all but I feel like if I do shoot it, then all the suffering, craving, and abstaining…yes drinking that nasty tasting cherry methadone syrup … Continue reading

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QBalls and decisions

R called and wanted me to go score with him, actually I thought he was short on money as usual and needed a bit of help so I went along, telling myself that I would provide cash as well “moral” … Continue reading

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double zinger

Thursday evening my sis tells me that she has been on some kind of list for a home through the housing authority and they had called her saying a home was available Sept 22 and if she was interested in … Continue reading

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still trying

I had written a long description of last Saturday night’s activities from losing nearly all my money playing slots, getting drunk at the casino bar, finding a ride home then instead of being driven home I somehow end up at … Continue reading

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